Another day...

Thank God it's Wednesday today. I have had such a horrible week. I have been feeling EXHAUSTED and honestly, I have not been as productive at work as I should. My boss is on vacation this week so I had planned on doing alot of catching up and also, Maria my co-worker and supervisor, had planned on getting this office organized and throwing away alot of old files but we haven't attacked that yet. Hopefully, we will get to it later today or tomorrow.

My life changed almost 2 years ago when death came to our family. Soon after my nephew was born sleeping, my husband was diagnosed with brain cancer. I have lived with that nightmare for almost 2 years now. If you are in remission or not, cancer is always there and will forever be a part of your life. I don't wish this on anyone. I have not been the same person I was. I was always one to worry about something but I NEVER imagined this. Everyday, I wake up to "cancer" and go to bed thinking "cancer".

When I am alone driving to and from work is when I start to imagine...very lonely, very sad and very scary. I try not to think of the future and take it "one day at a time" but it is very hard. I imagine not having my husband and it is so very sad. I often think that I will fall into a deep depression. Fortunately, I have 2 beautiful kids that I have to keep me going. I know it is hard for them too as they spend most of their days with Henry after school.

Last year, on Valentines day, I came home to find roses on my dining table that my husband bought me. He always buys me flowers and I remember thinking, what if I don't get my roses next year...maybe I won't but I know I will have him and that's the best gift:)

Have a wonderful Valentines Day everyone. Remember to love everyday for we don't know what tomorrow brings!!!

Hope, Faith & Love
Emma :)